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I’m sitting here thinking about what to write…about how I feel lately and well, it’s hard to say. Some days I am slap happy fantastic…others I just wanna punch everyone in the face, even small kittens (b/c lets face it-cats are assholes). EVERYTHING is changing. My relationships, my occupation, my passions…which is exciting and terrifying- all of it welling up inside ready to burst. Regardless of whatever emotional “bursts” I might feel I know without a doubt that I’ve made the right decision…that I’m on the right path to finding my true self. (*fart noise*)
I’ve learned a lot over the past few years- about strength, compassion, understanding, kindness and love. Above all else the one major thing I’ve taken from these last few years is that you can’t change who you are. No matter how hard you may try to fit for someone else, you HAVE to be YOU. It starts with you being 100% confident with yourself. If you don’t love you first, who will?
I am making a promise, here and now, to no longer bend to make someone else happy. I want a partner that loves me for everything I am- wholly. I’m not talking a boyfriend or “speshul” gentleman friend (no thank you), but a PARTNER. 50/50 baby. We love one another for everything we are- the good, the bad, the ugly. Someone that sees me for ME and visa versa. I want to be there for my partner equally to lift them up to their fullest potential, the same way I want to be. I look forward to the future with someone who makes me laugh HARD and enjoys being just as ridiculous with no shame.
This is just the beginning of my writing…I want to work on really being able to express my feelings through writing. I’ve never been great at writing, I’ve always expressed myself better though movement and music. But, I think, writing things out more often will open up new doors to self-expression. My friend Angelina says I need to “write for you and use real words- talk about the specifics, and how they make you feel…” Ha, easier said than done, but I’ll do it. So I’m starting now…we’ll see what happens…
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